is it always what it seems?

Friday, March 31, 2006 @11:06 PM

aiyah. this is so irritating. no one ever reads this anw so who cares about blogging? and updating? pple think i type crapp one...nvm. sometimes, i really am so stupid. D:

anw, school just got worse. when i thought i would be content at having to sleep at an EARLY hour of 12 midnight, work load increases and tadaaa... 1 am is the norm, eh?haha, and mrs tan tells us how funny she actually finds this: that we all sleep in the wee hours of the morn. like it is something new to her. that's kinda sad. coz teachers actually do give us time for pts. but it's just that if all subject teachers give pts 1 month before, and expects us to complete ALL of them by the due date, it is just NOT possible. Add that on the our daily workload, homework, tests, assignments, summatives, and all the committments we have. many of us take third lang. have ccas that are time-consuming. some, like sarah chong, has no time for herself at all. eh, and you tell us that it is shocking to know that we actually sleep so late?! ok...

maybe it's just my bad attitude. maybe it's just my attitude problem...maybe it's just me

Sunday, March 26, 2006 @7:01 PM

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me(or tag a comment). It can be anything you want, either good or bad. I promise not to come after you with a sharpened pencil either way. (I hope.) When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised or mortified about what people remember about you.

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i hvn posted in a long long time, so much so that my tagboard is dead. argh. not like i have the time to post anw. i hvn finished my science investigation report yet, and it is due in less than 24 hours. like wow. )X school is officially out of the learning journey week and we have to return to school. BLEARGH. shatec was FUN...just a random comment.

OH NO. tests will be returned soon. crapped. as usual, the smart pple will get high marks, and the stupid ones (ie. only me) will flunk everything. but but i shall be HAPPY! (: despite everything, the sun still rises everyday to light up my life! isn't that wonderful?

Thursday, March 16, 2006 @9:59 AM

eh, ok, so it's already thursday of the school HOLIDAY. and i hvn had a chance to sit down and properly fix my mind on the fact that it is already thursday. 3 camps for the holiday. WOW. haha. but i guess guitar camp was quite fun. and i fell asleep during the nightwalk. but when telling ghost stories, i think yufang, our chair, got more freaked out then we were. and then just as they said," heard music playing," ms ong shu juin, our teacher i/c's phone rang. and we all screamed... HAHA.

maths camp was just tiring. there was this super pro guy from nus high, and he was like answering all the questions. and we got 2nd for games on the first day. yesterday was the maths trail, and we did badly larh. randomly did the first few easiest questions. and then when we came to the hard ones, that nus high boy did them all. but still, we didn't get any placing. NING and her group got first. ning, lucky thing.

and then my feet were like aching and i was so tired. but i still went to bugis with ning to walk a bit, and we saw a lot of bimbo-ish bags, of which ning tried to carry and act like a bimbo. and we both bought books lah, so guai. haha. and today is my only rest day, which i still have to go fetch my sis from school to some class. bleargh. ok, i shall go slack off now, before reviewing my long hwk list. oh shucks, i hvn done science investigation. DEAD ><

Monday, March 06, 2006 @8:59 PM

Bahh, hello, welcome to another boring day of my tragic life.

haha, fine. today, i was like sleeping the whole way through classes lorh. esp quah's lessons, where i somehow sit right in front of the lab, and i fall asleep. i was staring blankly into the clock, and watching quah walk around. Many interesting observations have been made about her... like how her ahems were not proportioned, or how they were low...haha

i bought books from the book fair today. CHINESE BOOKS, okayye...so accomplished, eh? have to do book review mah. not as if i will EVER read them, just look around at the pics, then say it is a good book. HACK.

interclass relay today. WHEE, we are SO PRO can? 2nd is no easy feat, i tell you. but then if you consider second out of three, well...erm... anw, we all had fun lorh. what with passing the baton, and seeing goh su fen magically RUN. and getting to pon like 1.5 hours of guitar. but then, the LIMYINING larh, she ran off halfway, without waiting for me to change. YOU TOOT, NING! (:

anw, i feel like ponning guitar tmr. got too many things coming liao

Wed: maths test. my sets, indices, simultaneous equations= sucky
Thurs: Geog (i got 5/8 for fa; the whole class knows how low i got thanks to mrs ng), lit (i got 16/25 for fa. just KILL me, i am quitting lit next year thank you), english draft (don't come telling me you have done your first draft, or what so ever. i have not even started with a word and so there. now be happy), extraction for braces. help me. i don't want to think about it.

but must look on the positive side. Tmr, is a nice and slacky day. three core subjects. but i refuse to change seats. (grabs chair and refuses to let go) so sad lorh. ok, i need to go revise. i want to change my blogskin but no time, try to do during hols lorh, but then again, i am even busier then...

@4:14 PM

Recently, i was thinking about the past, a few years back, and i got really pissed with myself. if i hadn't gotten in the gep, (i don't know why so many people make such a big deal out of it) i would still have good friends from my old school, i would still be in touch with many nice people. i would be free-er than i am now, not staying back everyday, not facing the pressure to excel all the time, like people EXPECT you to do well, if not there is something seriously wrong. i would not be in something so called elite school, i would be able to lead a normal life, i would have the chance to feel what it is like to have a social life. i would not be spending more than 12 hours in school, i would not have to care about all this crap. i am sick of all this. whatever.

really sick. i can't. i don't know. call me stupid, i am not clever. i am NOT. i don't really care anymore.