is it always what it seems?

Saturday, October 29, 2005 @4:44 PM

i am posting again. for no reason, but just to past time, i guess. very bored at home. wanna go shopping with family or friends. hot and stinky and waiting for a nice bath. a little dizzy and queasy.

i am quite happy and accomplished that i helped my sis create her blog today. everyone please go read and tag her! the links! the one that says jodyn. yupps! she's the one, she's my sis! <33.>

i went out for a while just now. to go buy groceries with my parents. and now i am stuck at home. someone please get me out! ): bored. which makes me think of my passion. what on earth is my true passion? i still don't really know. perhaps that is why i just aimlessly go on with life, not doing anything meaningfully.

urgh. i need to maintain a healthy diet. i want to have a healthy body. so i have to tell myself to eat healthy food. healthy healthy blah. i can't go on now, i have nothing to write about. ok i shall end here now. i shall go and bathe.

just want to tell anyone who is reading this: i really love ya loads. thanks for everything! <3

Friday, October 28, 2005 @6:35 PM

Heyyos! i am in quite an okay mood now that everything about cheers is over. (: netball carn today. it was so hot and we were baked in the sun. i think i got a nice tan today.

so what if we didn't win netball carn? we have done our very best and at least we had fun. we all have done very very well. i'm sure. we didn't win the shooting, but the shooters have done their best. we didn't win the cheers, but i think we had done our best. we didn't win the flag, but i think they have put in a lot of effort. and most importantly, we didn't win all the games, but at least we have tried. and poor miao and jing xiao got hurt. i hope they are better now. and jing xiao, it is not ur fault. no it is Not. so don't blame yourself. we have had fun and everything, so the objective of the whole event is achieved. a big cheer and hug to all 111-ers! we rawk the world!!!*hugs*

eportfolio. screwed. i don't even think that the webpage is enough to be graded by whoever. it is so not good and it is so plain and can't link properly and it is just screwed. but i am not going to care. it's the hols soon and i just want to slack for now. don't care

finally! my sister's exams are finally over, so i can legally slack with her! whoots! i have waited long and hard for this day! so now all of us are slacking. at home i mean. and the atmosphere is very nice.

urgh. gotta go for dinner now. i am too lazy to blog more. i am giddy. oh gosh, headache. argh.

<3
loved and happy

Thursday, October 27, 2005 @10:44 PM

Warning! if you are feeling in a good mood, please do NOT carry on reading as this post is prolly gonna be another irritated one. thanx

i am so irritated again. it is so so so so late and no one on this earth has sent me a single cheer for the netball carn tmr and despite me telling them and reminding to do so, this has once again happened. say i don't know how to lead or wadeva. i don't care. why not just try out for yourself? it is that easy, just come up to me and tell me that you so wanna be the cheer i/c and i will gladly give up the glory throne. just no one cares. and everyone expects us to be the winner of tmr's cheer competition when no one in the freaking class cares about some stupid cheers. all those fake promises of people saying how enthu they are and how they will all go home and very guai-ly send me some very nice original cheers and expect me to wait stupidly for them when the whole night they could just very well be in their sweet homes sleeping away. like how nice. i feel like an idiot.

and i hate hate hate freaking comp studs. i thought that i would have uploaded the stupid crappy webpage that prolly did not include enough info and be done with it. but no, the thing just did not work out and my background and my font colour were both black. so i could not see a single thing on the webpage. like how good. urgh. so now i have to wait till tmr to go all the way to the knowledge hub again and rack my brains on how to load the thingum again. i hate all this crap. i just can't wait the the hols to come and i can really let go of every thing and just breathe properly for once.

today was screwed again. we got back a lot of papers. and it was supposed to be sort of happy, right? it's the last bit of papers for sec1 and then we all graduate and go on the sec 2 and if we did not do so well, we could always go back and work harder, right? but no, some of us start crying,no, i do NOT blame y'all, and make me so depressed. i refused to cry in school and ended up sheding all the tears at home. actually, it was just a little bit of it. but i could not understand why people have to cry over grades. it's just grades, not someone's life or anything(no, i am not cursing). it's really not worth it. it's not worth the tears.

ok. i am very irritated and sleepy now. and we have to go to school by 7 tmr. i hate all this. i want to get over with eportfolio and hope that something would work out. i don't wanna care about the cheers and get over with the netball carn. whoever is reading, pls do not put entire blame on me if we do not win the cheering competition. what about the others who do not care at all? pls also look for them, and not only me. (i am not saying that i am totally not at fault, but it is not entirely my fault). i am still very pissed. pls pardon me if you see me irritated in school. it's because of all this junk and nonsense after the exams that are killing me. i thought life without the exams would be better. i was wrong. i am stupid. urgh. good nite.

anonymous: WAI IAN! very funny, rite? oh btw, are you going for the whole refresher course tmr? (X <3
Dee: you don't have to worry about history, coz your geog will pull you up. i guess drama nite is finally somewhere. if only we could get over netball carn. CHEERS! i don't like to care about them. jia you for tmr, kae? go 111 in netball, but not in cheers. stupid cheers. i will hate cheers forever starting from today.

<3
loved and irritated

Wednesday, October 26, 2005 @9:45 PM

i am so so pissed!!! i am pissed at everything in my life now. i am pissed at netball carn, where i am some forced cheer i/c and i don't even know what to do, and no one on earth other than pauline, amanda and frances are caring.

and i am so pissed about drama nite. i am not feeling left out, nono! i am always open, if anyone needs anyone else to fill in any space. but then some pple who are not even doing anything and just sitting around would come over and say that we are not doing anything when the fact is that we thought we were offered some place but the show is just going on and we actually go on. and there are so many other people who are not doing anything and yet they are allowed to boss at others. is that fair? and why should a very bonded 111 get so uptight and angry over a small thing like drama nite? who cares if we get in or not? who cares? as long as we have had a great time together and have fun, i think it is enough.

i really don't care a single thing about this anymore. why should i waste my energy thinking and worrying about such stuff??!!

french today was fun! mlle au bought so many tubs of ice cream! and she gave each of us a french book. why is mlle au so nice to us? she rox! she's so nice. it's a sadd thing that she cannot teach us next year.)): she is just so so so so nice! she is spending so much money on us, and we are so greedy. mlle au, thank you thank you thank you! thank you so much for being so patient with us! thank you for teaching us well enough for me to get a 4.0! thank you for the ice cream and the book and the tarte au pomme. and thank you for wearing the nice red glittering hairband! thank you!

i am a certified shopper! i went with tryphe to buy some dinner and some breakfast at j8 after french today! i went "shopping" and came back with stuff, so i am a certified shopper! (: tryphe: say unusual! not interesting! (X and xinmin just walked in front and abandoned us ): hahas

we got back history today. it was quite ok, and i was lucky enough to barely scrape a 4.0. just got, i think. i hope my maths is good enough for my to calculate correctly. (: ok, i shall just end here and not care about anything in school now and just slack. bye!

Tryphe: i am so honoured that you are the frequent tagger around! (: and lucky you don't have to care about drama nite anymore... i don't want to care either. it's so irritating! i am not looking forward to netball carn... no one is giving any cheers and expect me to come up with something on that day. urgh! <33
Pei: anything also can, as long as you buy one for me... (hahas)
Chloe: oh no! don't cry! i give you a tissue too! (X so sad i couldn't go with y'all, i have french. another time, can? must tell me, kaes? <33
Pearly: haha, thanx! <33

<3
love and pissed

Tuesday, October 25, 2005 @11:00 PM

HI! i don't really feel like blogging now. it's pretty late and i did not really want to go on the comp, if not for the need to send someone a document. so i shall keep this post to a short one. i am so happy! we are having french tomorrow! it's our last lesson and mlle au is treating us to ice-cream! *smiles really widely*. (:

Today was just a ~~bad~~ horrible day! i mean, other than for me going to school at 8 instead of 0720, i just had an overdose of uno, thanks to darling pauline, and survived through a whole lot of arguing whether school ended at 1 or 2. even when we were dismissing ourselves, we were still arguing. like how nice . and we finally got our class tee. and we also finally got something out for drama nite. i think abby and jo and sulyn are like the ones who will totally get the crowd laughing madly. especially jo. she's just so good! (it's meant to be a compliment!). and so many of us are also involved in the upcoming netball carn, and so a group of 111 will often be at the courts practising. and i seem to be the one who is not doing anything and just standing at one end, watching everything fascinating happen. not that i care. it's actually quite amusing. haha. i guess it's good to just sit back and relax once in a while, before i start hyperventillating about the cheers for the netball carn. and rach thinks that our cheerers aren't the kind who would cheer as in shout kind of cheer. but it's not my fault that i somehow did not have any talents that could let me be of help in the netball carn and it's not my fault that someone chose me to be an i/c and i had to come up with cheers.

urgh. i feel sad all of a sudden. it's the end of exams and we still have to meet so many deadlines and still have so many assignments to complete. like our eportfolio. why can't they just let us off and let us enjoy what is left of our 13 year-old year? and why must we have a drama nite? why can't we just have time to really bond with our class? going by the rate we are doing drama nite, i think it is more of an opportunity to argue and disagree rather than bond, and it has gotten some people quite stress over it. ok. maybe i am sounding a little too pessimistic. this is a sign for me to go and sleep and stop thinking on the bad side of things. yeah. i should be more positive and optimistic, if not i will start crying all over again.

we are getting back our history papers tomorrow. wish me luck. i hope i don't flunk. ): good nite! and stay happy! life is too short to be sad! (X

Tryphe: heh, so sorry tryphe, must tell me when your church has another of such activities, can? i would love to go along! (: <3
MIao: haha, i can tell you are one apple fan. but i don't have enough money. zens are cheaper. unless you would buy me one... (X *smiles widely*

Monday, October 24, 2005 @10:42 PM

I haven't been feeling like blogging of late, which is bad, i suppose. but there isn't anything to blog about and i have just realised the heated debate on whether the zen or the ipod is better.><>

i am so happy today. i went to school and slacked a whole lot and came back home and slacked even more! (: and i just found out that we don't have to go to school by 0720 tomorrow, which means i can have a longer time to enjoy my beauty sleep, which means i will be able to slack even MORE! which is good! i think i am so blur, i mean, the whole class prolly knew of this going to school only by 8 tmr, and i just found out the night before, as i was about the go to sleep. blur-pokk me.

URGH! i think drama night is a total waste of time. when we could be sitting together doing something productive, like playing games to increase our iq, there we are, sitting down and folding paper boats or deciding who should be a giraffe. and it's not as if we are the most productive class or something. Mr conolly prolly was referring to some other enthu class which has alr started making their props. it's either they're fast or we're slow. i prefer to immerse(? sounds weird) myself in self-deception and take it that they are the fast ones. ><

we had to do some weird survey today. something that asked silly qns like our goals and our futer profession. who cares about that when my ultimate academic goal in my whole life so far is just to make it out of secondary school alive? i can't believe i have to go through some more of such surveys. so URGH irritating!

it's alr quite late and if i still want to catch a bit of my beauty sleep, i think i had better turn in now. so i shall end here. no, i mean here. ok. nites! (it ends here!)

NING: i dun care i dun care i dun care! hahas! ><
MICH: Heyy dearr!~<33>radio!
PEI: zen does not suck! i just don't have enough money to buy an ipod. unless you would give me one...(smiles sweetly)
DEE: HIGH 5 dee! i will prolly never get one either! so sadd. ):
CHLOE: i want a zen too! ipod is really expensive! when you wanna go out? i am desperate, what with my sister at home revising for exams! <33
TRYPHE: i am so so so bored! ): yes yes yes yes! go ice-skate!!! i can't teach you as i am not some pro at skating. i will bring you to fall with me! ><>

Sunday, October 23, 2005 @11:40 AM

i am so happy! still. anyways, i think that the exams actually make me blog more than the after-exams. maybe it's just because i have more things to write then.

argh! i think i wasted the whole of yesterday. i accompanied my mum to the dentist, where she had some filling done, and it's not my fault that it was a saturday and so many dental clinics were closed, or fully booked. and so we spent one whole morning looking for some clinic which was free.and then i found one that had only 1 more appointment to go, so we waited. and we waited... for like 2 hours. there, we met some guy who called himself Robert. he was some old ri boy, and he is some scholar of some kind. and if anyone is thinking sick at the moment, like me having some boyfriend or something, no! that robert guy is like 60 years old?! (X and he claimed he could do magic and use some rubber band to do lame stuff. my sister refused to speak all this while.

and then i went to the library to borrow lots of books, especially comics! ><

i am so confused about the whole post-eoys schedule. can someone please teach me how to read it? when are our dismissal for each of the days? nvm, i shan't bother. i want to go on strike! refuse to go to school on our marking days! yeah! whoops, my mum just came by. i shall be more discreet, and not get too excited. heh

ok, maybe i should dedicate this post to all the october babies! i wanna wish a very happy birthday to:

8 oct: Jo
9 oct: Frances
10 oct: Jun Yi
16 oct: darling darling darling jodyn! (are you reading this?? ><)
18 oct: Shin yi
26 oct: may
30 oct: Pauline
31 oct: darling woodlouse (you hvn tagged you poof!)

ok, i think tt was a lot. why are so many pple born in the month of october?

i want to go out with some friends! so whoever is reading this and feels like going out to destress, pls call me! i wanna go out too. i dunno how i am going to spend the hols doing nothing and cooped at home. miserable me...

sometimes, i feel so guilty. God gave us this beautiful world, and here we are, just ruining it. and sinful humans do all sorts of bad things like stealing, lying, cheating, ... it's horrible! i hate it this way. why can't the world be more peaceful? why must some people have wars and leave the world in ruins? they do not only kill people but harm the earth. urgh. i shan't go on. i am on the verge of tears. i shall leave with this. HAPPY SLACKING TO EVERYONE! >< <33
(sorry, this post is simply messy!)

MIAO: hi miao! i tagged at ur blog too!><
NING: i shan't care about ur standard english! ><>
and happy slacking!
CHLOE: hi darling! <33>
TRYPHE: hahas, i think it stoped at about one million over "i am so happy" ><.and it was indeed our class' most quietest time of all. maybe miao would have broken it. mlle lim must be feeling guilty about showing us this film. she owes us an apology! hahas!
<33
loved and slacked

Friday, October 21, 2005 @8:38 PM

Oh gosh! i still cannot recover from being so HAPPY! The stupid EOYs are finally finally OVER! i think i went a bit too crazy, can't contain my joy! Sorry, tryphe, you had to go out with some crazy person who is bonkers, for the whole afternoon. and how many "i am so happy!" have you counted alr? Still, i really cannot imagine how i could have come all the way till today. i just realised that i have survived one whole year through rgs! at the beginning of the year, i thought that i would never come this far. i survived!

i am so irritated now. i have tried to respond to some rgs survey and i have done it like 6 times, and everytime i want to save and close, it will just keep asking for the password and some error will occur. i do NOT question why the no. of responses stay at 0. urgh, i wanted to keep the mood happy and inet has spoilt it all. i shall put strongly disagree to the inet qn. and i will not let some electronic device such as the computer irritate me.

today for french, we watched this movie with a very thick plot. i think that the movie must have had some M18 or NC 16 rating. it was kinda sick and all about some bun in the oven and ******************** a lot of other sick stuff. it's perverted. and the storyline was so anti-climax, it was taking one whole round about who killed some stupid fella, and it turns out he is alive and kicking in his room. But finally, after hearing a load of stuff, he just takes a gun and kills himself and really dies. and his daughter wanted to "free" him. i think the plot was quite cleverly written, very original but unimaginable. it really makes one think a bit. but i still think it was perverted. (X

maths was just ok. i finished it in about 40 minutes, which i guess was long,considering pei only took 23 minutes. i feel inferior. but halfway thru' when i was checking my answers, i just got kinda confused and then i started doing my checks wrongly and hyperventilated for nothing as my original answer was correct all along. oh wells, now i can finally officially start slacking! It's official: the eoys are OVER!

i wanna go out and just let my hair down (which is alr down). perhaps it would also be nice to go out with 111, my darling class. it would be fun to like meet outside school, and it would be our last time to bond as a 111 class of 2005. wheeee!

and i hope that we will play very well for the netball carn! we can so do it! yeah! only thing is the I/C of cheering, which is me. i don't think i can cheer, moreover create them. Siying dearr, you gotta help me outta this. hahas. anyways, i know that all of 111 have been working really hard, so jia you all of us!

<33
; i was loved

Thursday, October 20, 2005 @12:05 PM

HI!!! sorry if i would sound a bit too hyper or happy in this post. this is because i AM very happy. i can't can't believe that geog is finally down and i m only left with maths!!! and you can't mugg for maths anyway, so i am so gonna SLACK! i am ~~hardworking~~ slack! ><>

Geog was actually quite screwed today. or at least the mcq part was screwed. i think i might have like maybe 2 wrong alr, but guess what? i don't care!!! it's the teacher job to mark, so i don't have to care!!! and i think that section b was fine. i think the map part was sort of redundant. i didn't really know the world map, but i could still sorta do the qns, so i don't care!!! the last section was the killer of my hand! i was writing like crazy. my head was so confused so i just kept writing whatever came to my mind then, which was a mess of jumbled up reasons. esp the last qn. i spent like 25 mins on it. and i am a bit worried that i might have li2 ti2 a bit, but i don't care!!!

i am so so so so so happy! after maths tmr, my mind is going to go blank and all i would be able to think of would be sleep! and i won't care for a slightest thing on earth. i don't care!!! no lahh actually tt's not very true. there is some library workshop thing tt i don't want to sign up for. i don't want to do any more work for the rest of the year. oh wells, it can't be helped i guess. and i still hv french tmr, but i think tt would be quite ok, coz mlle au rox!

do you think that as people grow older, they tend to be more emotional? it feels so to me. like when i was in primary school, i didn't really care about class spirit or school spirit or wadeva. and then now in secondary school, there is like so many more things to talk about. and then yesterday i was thinking a little about this whole year and then i began to feel a bit sadd and the tears sprang up. or the cliched: tears welled up in my eyes. i felt so weird. it was like something that i couldn't help. oh gosh, i just hate it when i cry. like my eyes just go all red and my face goes all red and then i just can't stop the tears. it just goes on and on. oh yeah, and thanx so much chloe, for offering me the nice "tissue" yesterday. (:

this is supposed to be a happy post, so why is it so sadd? urgh, i must think happy, if not i will start crying again and then it would be so unstoppable. so yupps, friday is just in a matter of hours and it will come very soon, and then i would be able to fully slack without worrying that i am not mugging. it will soon be over and all the people in rgs would rejoice and i would be happy again. is this self-deception or what? ><

<33

i was picked up by you when i fell

Tuesday, October 18, 2005 @11:52 PM

FINALLY! i have finally conquered history and bio!!! *laughs madly* i am so so so happy! Only geog and maths left! :D i view it as a great achievement! (: i can't believe that i survived through 3 days alr.*pinches myself hard* OW!~ ok, it's true, i am alive.

History was ok, only that i was writing and writing like siao. i was writing for the whole 1 hour and 35 mins. the last 5 minutes, i was just gasping at my paper, which was nearly coloured blue by me. and my hand just got worse--even more numb. and then i remember that i have a geog paper tomorrow. GEOG= a lot of writing= bye bye my hand. and i think i screwed the second question for the SBQ. i didn't know how to use purpose and so i wrote some crapp that didn't make sense at all. urgh. bleargh. i don't care.

Bio was ok screwed .very screwed. i think i lost 3-4 marks alr. urgh. so pissed. ): and i just got super confused in the middle and i didn't what i was writing. my hand just kept going. and i kept changing the position of my pen. i can't be bothered.

i shall be guai and concentrate hard on mugging geog. which i hvn really revised on since the wkend. shifting cultivation...plantation agriculture...bleargh. i still don't really understand how to change from one system to another. or is it a type? oh gosh, i just realised how much more i need to mugg. ok, not sleeping at 10.30. change that to 11. grrr...

i can't wait i so can't wait for friday. after the maths paper. but still have to listen to some principal's talk. have to stay back. bleargh, i wanna go home and slack. (: shucks, i am daydreaming again. if you see me staring into space again, pls remind me not to daydream. i need to concentrate. Concentrate! urgh. not working. maybe i should just go and sleep. (X

ok, i am typing crap now. and i just realised that i should not be blogging so much and should turn to my lovely geog notes instead. i really have to go mugg now. okies, so let's just hope that i would be able to continue surviving through this week and that you would see me still alive on friday. :P

<33
love

@3:10 PM

i am so supposed to be revising now, but i don't feel like. oh gosh, i feel so slack today. i just wanna lie flat on my bed and sleep till the end of the week. then i wake up feeling so happy that the eoys are finally over.(X if only...

CHINESE!~ i am so over with it. hahas! i don't have to care about Chinese for the rest of the year. ~whoots~! but i think i am going to miss the 3.6 gpa by a lot. i screwed up my two zuowens. i finished in like 1 hour and 30 minutes and then i didn't know what to do so i just sat there, hoping that time would somehow pass and my poor hand would not feel so numb. and my right hand is still feeling numb now. shucks. how to write for history tmr? my tian kong is gonna get a big fat zero, and my compre was just bad. i didn't even understand the part where we had to fill in the boxes. some ren sheng dao li. what crapp. so i just wrote something that was obviously WRONG.

i am so not going to care about chinese anymore. it will not get in my way to mugg bio and history hard. urgh. i need to get my brains working. it's not working well enough to understand words like mastication or amylase. and i just read miao's history blog and it was really funny. hahas. miao, you're GOOD! i am still pondering if mr chew's notes are enough to bring me through the exams tmr. wei shan from 1/13 suspects that it is not enough. marco polo sucks. i am not learning him. Magellan, Dias, Columbus, anyone else? oh yeah, and Battuta.

Friends Forever
by Ashley Benson

My friends are so very dear to me,
Through the good and bad they've been there,
Laughter or tears we've been through it all,
But no matter what they stood by me,
Sharing in my joy, or lending a shoulder to cry on.

Building memories that will last a life time.
The fun times and laughter that we have shared
Are happy memories that will always be there.
When I was sad, they have always cheered me up.

My friends are true friends, not just passing by,
But will be there through out the years.
I can't think of more perfect friends,
To share my goals and dreams with.

Because my Forever Friends
Are the only ones I will ever need,
I don't know if they can tell
Just how much they mean to me.

How important their friendship is,
And how much I care,
For they are what true friendship is about.
They've there when I need them,
And I love them all.

i like this poem, although it's simple, it's nice.

oh shucks. i hafta go revise. look how long i have been slacking. (X

<33

Monday, October 17, 2005 @3:40 PM

Yes! i feel refreshed, coz i have just bathed. (: i have spent the whole afternoon, since i came home, slacking. i guess i haven't really recovered from the joy that one eoy is finally down.

*relief* english eoy today was ok. i am so so so so relieved. the comprehension was fine, but i copied quite a lot from the passage, unless they said i had to put in my own words. and then i screwed up the summary, which i started off with at 150 words. and then i tried to cut and cut and cut and came to 109 words, just a minute before the teacher said time's up. i guess i am just plain lucky. my compo was ok too, only i am worried that i wrote out of point. i wrote about memory, but didn't end with anything of memory. i hope the teacher doesn't penalise me for that. and i was close (really close) to tears as i wrote it. my hand just kept writing and writing. urgh. i finished the compo just one minute before time was up too. (: i thought the teacher was weird. he went around the class holding three stacks of paper, one answer sheet, one question paper, and one unused paper. so funny.

chinese is up next, tomorrow. and the worse thing is that i don't even know how to prepare for chinese. almost none of the things that we have been learning in our ke4 bens3 would come out, and i can't prepare for chinese compre. for compo, i am too lazy to read all those xing1 qi1 wu3 zhou1 baos4. i hope they don't only have re4 men2 hua4 ti2 for us to choose. i am too slack to memorize phrases too.(i don't even know where to get them ><)so basically, i am just sitting down and doing nothing, yet hope that the paper would be super easy tomorrow, or at least be something that i can do.

and i am now stupidly trying to revise history, for which i am very deaded, when i have chinese tomorrow. and bio, i have no idea what i am actually learning, all the chim words and stuff. i wonder how i am going to pass bio. i don't know how to revise for geog maps. and as mrs mo has said, i have the knowledge in me but i don't know how to apply and use it to answer the question. which makes me screwed. maths, i haven't even started preparing yet. i am hoping to mugg that out on thursday.

i should go and revise now, i think. all these rantings are not helping me revise for anything. ok. so i wish myself luck. may i do well tomorrow. (X

<33 love

Sunday, October 16, 2005 @10:40 PM

Finally, i got a blog! (X after much thoughts. perhaps i shouldn't have created it right before my eoys and now i have to try restrict myself from blogging. ): but i don't really care. actually, i would rather the eoys pass quickly and then 111 would be back to our usual cheery self again. these period of eoys has caused us to be so gloomy! people have been crying nearly everyday and we aren't so talkative anymore. i really hope so.

ok. no more sadd stuff! i am so happy my sister's bdae is today!*cheers* she finally turns 10! yayness! and my hamsters at home have just given birth, to FIVE babies. poor mother! I don't think giving birth to 5 babies at a time is what one would call an easy feat. speaking of lives, i think it is really amazing that living things can reproduce. it's just so unimaginable that God has given us such a wonderful gift of progeny! (:

ok, it's late and i want my beauty sleep. i shall wake up tomorrow and can't imagine that i have a blog.(X i never imagine that i would have one. nononono. i will wake up tomorrow and can't imagine that it's the start of the long dreaded EOYs. i don't even know whether i can pass an english composition or a comprehension. bleargh. to think i have been learning english for like the whole of my life? i feel sorry to all those teachers who attempted to teach me english. it's not their fault that they got such a lousy student. and chinese on tuesday. (: Something that i cannot mugg for. so i don't really have to care, except that my hand would prolly suffer cramps from writing 2 zuowens in 2 hours. history and bio and geog and maths are just screwed.

Nonono. i should not be thinking so sadd. it would be all over in a week. just hold on for a little while more, and during that time, just try my best. yeah. just put my best stinking foot forward. Yupps. i should be thinking happy and positive. my life is so so so blessed compared to so so so many others on this earth that don't even have a shelter above their heads.

kae, i am sleepy. i shall resist the urge to blog and go to sleep. so nite nite! zzZ... <3

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