is it always what it seems?

Thursday, October 27, 2005 @10:44 PM

Warning! if you are feeling in a good mood, please do NOT carry on reading as this post is prolly gonna be another irritated one. thanx

i am so irritated again. it is so so so so late and no one on this earth has sent me a single cheer for the netball carn tmr and despite me telling them and reminding to do so, this has once again happened. say i don't know how to lead or wadeva. i don't care. why not just try out for yourself? it is that easy, just come up to me and tell me that you so wanna be the cheer i/c and i will gladly give up the glory throne. just no one cares. and everyone expects us to be the winner of tmr's cheer competition when no one in the freaking class cares about some stupid cheers. all those fake promises of people saying how enthu they are and how they will all go home and very guai-ly send me some very nice original cheers and expect me to wait stupidly for them when the whole night they could just very well be in their sweet homes sleeping away. like how nice. i feel like an idiot.

and i hate hate hate freaking comp studs. i thought that i would have uploaded the stupid crappy webpage that prolly did not include enough info and be done with it. but no, the thing just did not work out and my background and my font colour were both black. so i could not see a single thing on the webpage. like how good. urgh. so now i have to wait till tmr to go all the way to the knowledge hub again and rack my brains on how to load the thingum again. i hate all this crap. i just can't wait the the hols to come and i can really let go of every thing and just breathe properly for once.

today was screwed again. we got back a lot of papers. and it was supposed to be sort of happy, right? it's the last bit of papers for sec1 and then we all graduate and go on the sec 2 and if we did not do so well, we could always go back and work harder, right? but no, some of us start crying,no, i do NOT blame y'all, and make me so depressed. i refused to cry in school and ended up sheding all the tears at home. actually, it was just a little bit of it. but i could not understand why people have to cry over grades. it's just grades, not someone's life or anything(no, i am not cursing). it's really not worth it. it's not worth the tears.

ok. i am very irritated and sleepy now. and we have to go to school by 7 tmr. i hate all this. i want to get over with eportfolio and hope that something would work out. i don't wanna care about the cheers and get over with the netball carn. whoever is reading, pls do not put entire blame on me if we do not win the cheering competition. what about the others who do not care at all? pls also look for them, and not only me. (i am not saying that i am totally not at fault, but it is not entirely my fault). i am still very pissed. pls pardon me if you see me irritated in school. it's because of all this junk and nonsense after the exams that are killing me. i thought life without the exams would be better. i was wrong. i am stupid. urgh. good nite.

anonymous: WAI IAN! very funny, rite? oh btw, are you going for the whole refresher course tmr? (X <3
Dee: you don't have to worry about history, coz your geog will pull you up. i guess drama nite is finally somewhere. if only we could get over netball carn. CHEERS! i don't like to care about them. jia you for tmr, kae? go 111 in netball, but not in cheers. stupid cheers. i will hate cheers forever starting from today.

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